I feel like throwing up but I don’t know if it’s because I don’t want eat, or because I hate getting into arguments. Just Kill me now. I wish i was at home.
Catch-22, How do I know I’m going crazy? If I want to see a DR again because I realize im slipping again, that proves I’m not crazy. Because I can tell. But if I feel weird enough where i feel like that I have to go, what does that mean?
Woke up today with a huge headache. So my breakfast was some pills and an apricot. I might eat a little more in a bit.
It way to early in the semester to be this worried and stressed about school. But I reached that point. I can’t think about Math right now. But it’s the most important thing. 2 tests and an essay due on Wednesday. And I’m turning 20 in a week, I don’t feel like I have anything to show for it. Someone help me. I can’t be down and out. Some people depend on me.
Please tell me I didn’t type all that for no reason.
I’m getting really tired of eating healthy, skipping meals, exercising, drinking water and weighing the same weight. This shit is getting really annoying, I’d faster cut this weight off of me than lose it through conventional (see; healthy) methods.
I started a Gluten Free diet…
My mom made shrimp pasta, and i cant have any of it…
Im gonna stab someone in the face.
Im hungry, and I shouldnt eat so i wont :(
At least I just ate, i was so dizzy :/
I just want my money to come in so I can buy shoes to run in so I can lose weight so I can be attractive so I can feel better about myself so I can forgive myself so I can be happy so I won’t get sad sometimes.
Sometimes my friends make me feel like the Goddamn Batman. But even the Batman is still human. Even superheroes die. I just want to help people, and make people happy. Sometimes I sacrifice myself for others. I want to save people from themselves. And all I need is someone to save me from myself.
Things I do to curb appetite in no particular order:
(P.S feel free to steal these)
1) Drink Water instead
2) Chew gum
3) Brush teeth
4) Think about it but don’t eat it
5) Screw you, I don’t want food.